Week One

Well I’ve been home for the last week,ajusting to what I don’t know! It is different being here,things in me have changed and even though things have changed in others, it’s not the same.I’m really at a place of saying, Father just reveal the next step and in that place of waiting. My last season was one of running hard and intense to say the least.I was aware of God’s activity in my life in a daily way and now stepping into this season it’s different. I have to say I enjoyed the “wilderness” even though it was hard at times, I was aware of God’s presense and Him being at work in my life, on a daily basis.I love you’ll ( my family at Zhop) and miss you’ll lots.

 

Out on the Street

So today was the first day being back in Canada that I went on the street..took the bus, walked through a mall, met with a friend. The experience was so overwhelming, it was like talking in to much to fast,it was like a shock to my system, on my way home I just wanted to be alone in my room, away from the noise, the business of life, the fast pace.For the last three months I have in some ways been hidden and coming out of that place; I’ve really noticed it more.Missing everyone at Zhop- and that place of hiddeness.

 

Back Home

So I’ve been back in Canada for about 24hrs so far.I miss Zhop, and let me tell you tears flowed, but as I have entered a new season, not knowing what’s around the bend I hold on to the One who has taken hold of me. In this time of not knowing, He knows and is in control.To everyone at Zhop,thank you for the last 3months and the intense wilderness leg of the journey that I entered into with you’ll, and ran along side. The time passed so fast, I can’t believe I’m back in Canada, but I continue to run and surrender my will ( I lay it all down) to the one I love;The One whose eyes are like blazing fire, the Faithful and true witness.

 

Time…..who can restrain it?

So this just might be my last blog before I leave Zhop and am back on my way to Canada.It’s actually 1:05am on Wed 10th Jan, my day of departure.As of now I can say I’m at peace but Iwill miss being at Zhop – the family I’ve gotten to know over the last three months and have come to love. I will miss running the race with you’ll and running hard!I have indeed been among “iron” and have been sharpened in so many different ways, most of which, I will come to see in the days ahead.As I head into Canda, I am trusting in the Lord with all my heart and leaning not on my own understanding. Hopefully I’m come up and out leaning on my beloved.These three months have passed so fast and it’s been like whirlwind – intense to say the least but I would not have had it anyother way except to have been able to stay here longer.

It seems that one season has come to an end, so I say yes to the next season and choose to embrace it, like all of the rest creation does as the seasons change in the physical.

 

A New Year

So another year is about to pass, just a few hours before we enter a New Year.And a few more days before I re-enter Canada after being in South Carolina for 3mths at Zhop, of which all the people I’ve come to love and know, some more than others but each has a unique story.It’s amazing how God weaves each person’s testimoney in Him and of Him….a taylor made journey to say the least. One thing I will say before stepping into the New Year is that even thought my Trust in God increases daily as I build my secret history in him, it never gets easier to let go and let God as it were, if you know what I mean. Me as a human being ,I find myself always up in the mix of wanting to know how God is gonna move, and wanting Him to bring me relief when He brings and gives Grace in time of need.
So even though it doesn’t get easier, cause you’re like ‘I thought I passed this stage’ the choise to choose to trust becomes easier.
So GRACE….GRACE, is what I need this year.

 

JUst a thought

So I’ve been a bit silent when it comes to blogging, not that I don’t have anything to say, but what would benifit the reader.When it comes to a social life, it has not been a season of building a social calendar, or arranging meeting after meeting with people. It’s been a season very much of God, me and questions being posed and my spirit within me stirred.So for that reason I lack words,and even more I still wait to fully see what has been done within me in this season, which will be seen in the days months and years ahead.
So I say:
But let him who boasts boast about this:
That he understands and knows me,
that I am the Lord, who exercises kindness,
justice and righteousness on earth,
for in these I delight,
declares the Lord. Jer 9:24

 

2hr15min

Well it’s like 2hrs 15min until it’s Christmas Morning…..So to Everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! On another note I’ve spent the last
six Christmas’s or I should say five in Canada and now going into my seventh year of being away from home, I’m spending Christmas in the States (Fort Mills, South Carolina) to be specific. And I’m at the Zadok House of Prayer……..I wonder what God is up to.You can’t always help but wonder, because sometimes you never know what he is up to but one thing I know is that He is GOOD and his plans for my life are GOOD.
And somewhere in the world right now I know some who are eating fresh hot bread……to my family I love you’ll and miss you’ll lots.
Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!!!

 

4 More Days

So it’s like four more days to Christmas and what can I say.Time waits on no one, soon we’ll be at the start of a new year….anyways I added a new piece to my “words spoken” page, so cheak it out.

 

SomeDays

So it’s the close of another day, and some days are harder than others.Questions going through your head…telling yourself over and over “I trust God’s leadership” even if I don’t understand it all the time.And if He give me all the answers or reasoning behind his leadership, it wouldn’t be Faith….Faith in him to Lean on HIM, to just trust like a child.Isn’t that what we’re called to, to trust like a child?

 

The Dawn of a New Week

Well it’s Sunday again, or it’s more like almost over.So on the blog there is a new entry under “Words Spoken” and I’ve changed some other things also the key is to seek to look, something we don’t often like to do, so often we’re like the “Fast and Furious”.But to see the little things, the things
that count it takes a slowing down of ourselves. We need to become gazers.

I’ve been wondering about God lately, he is so concerned with every part of us, he knows the number of hairs on our head, that’s big, he is aware of the emotions that rage within us daily,he catches every tear we cry. In Psalms 145:16 it says- “You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing.”God does that, he satisfys the desires of all.
And if he is concerned about us, shouldn’t we too wonder about him, think about him; his emotions, the movements of his heart.So I find myself wondering about him through out periods of the day. Like what is he thinking right now…this moment.