Listen to your Heart; The Eyes will Deceive

So another year is about to pass, just a few hours before we enter a New Year.And a few more days before I re-enter Canada after being in South Carolina for 3mths at Zhop, of which all the people I’ve come to love and know, some more than others but each has a unique story.It’s amazing how God weaves each person’s testimoney in Him and of Him….a taylor made journey to say the least. One thing I will say before stepping into the New Year is that even thought my Trust in God increases daily as I build my secret history in him, it never gets easier to let go and let God as it were, if you know what I mean. Me as a human being ,I find myself always up in the mix of wanting to know how God is gonna move, and wanting Him to bring me relief when He brings and gives Grace in time of need.
So even though it doesn’t get easier, cause you’re like ‘I thought I passed this stage’ the choise to choose to trust becomes easier.
So GRACE….GRACE, is what I need this year.

So I’ve been a bit silent when it comes to blogging, not that I don’t have anything to say, but what would benifit the reader.When it comes to a social life, it has not been a season of building a social calendar, or arranging meeting after meeting with people. It’s been a season very much of God, me and questions being posed and my spirit within me stirred.So for that reason I lack words,and even more I still wait to fully see what has been done within me in this season, which will be seen in the days months and years ahead.
So I say:
But let him who boasts boast about this:
That he understands and knows me,
that I am the Lord, who exercises kindness,
justice and righteousness on earth,
for in these I delight,
declares the Lord. Jer 9:24

Well it’s like 2hrs 15min until it’s Christmas Morning…..So to Everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! On another note I’ve spent the last
six Christmas’s or I should say five in Canada and now going into my seventh year of being away from home, I’m spending Christmas in the States (Fort Mills, South Carolina) to be specific. And I’m at the Zadok House of Prayer……..I wonder what God is up to.You can’t always help but wonder, because sometimes you never know what he is up to but one thing I know is that He is GOOD and his plans for my life are GOOD.
And somewhere in the world right now I know some who are eating fresh hot bread……to my family I love you’ll and miss you’ll lots.
Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!!!

So it’s like four more days to Christmas and what can I say.Time waits on no one, soon we’ll be at the start of a new year….anyways I added a new piece to my “words spoken” page, so cheak it out.

So it’s the close of another day, and some days are harder than others.Questions going through your head…telling yourself over and over “I trust God’s leadership” even if I don’t understand it all the time.And if He give me all the answers or reasoning behind his leadership, it wouldn’t be Faith….Faith in him to Lean on HIM, to just trust like a child.Isn’t that what we’re called to, to trust like a child?

Well it’s Sunday again, or it’s more like almost over.So on the blog there is a new entry under “Words Spoken” and I’ve changed some other things also the key is to seek to look, something we don’t often like to do, so often we’re like the “Fast and Furious”.But to see the little things, the things
that count it takes a slowing down of ourselves. We need to become gazers.

I’ve been wondering about God lately, he is so concerned with every part of us, he knows the number of hairs on our head, that’s big, he is aware of the emotions that rage within us daily,he catches every tear we cry. In Psalms 145:16 it says- “You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing.”God does that, he satisfys the desires of all.
And if he is concerned about us, shouldn’t we too wonder about him, think about him; his emotions, the movements of his heart.So I find myself wondering about him through out periods of the day. Like what is he thinking right now…this moment.

So everyday, my eyes are being open to the realization of, “I really don’t know anything” and what I thought I knew if any is really “little” but it is a good place to be.Some may ask “well what do you mean you don’t know anything and how can that be good?” I say it’s good place to be, because you make yourself avaiable to be taught by God, your desire for him increases.If I don’t realise my need for him I won’t go after him expecially if I think I’m in a “good” place.In this place of realizing I need him my curiousity…hunger is stirred.But then hunger alone is not enough, I need to then eat and eating is a daily choise.

So I’m getting the hang of this thing called blogging, if I might say so myself, and I’ve put up new pictures on my “picture page” as it were. I’ve had a really long day not to mentioned that my sleeping patterns have changed, so now I’m up in the night again and end up going
to “sleep” as it were around 4 or 5 in the morning….sometimes I see every hour pass by, so I’ve been doing the shift from 12noon to 6pm for the last few days.
One thing I’ve come to realise is that I will miss Zhop when I go back to Canda, the community and the fact that everyone is going after on thing, and iron is sharpening iron as it were.

The phrase that been on my mind today is ” Living an intensional life” and what that means, so I was looking at the passage in Matthew 25 about the ten virgins and how so many times I fall into the catagory of the foolish, the lack of prepration and not living in the hour I’m in, think there is so much time still, when this is a late hour.

So I have tried to upload Pictures and lets just say it didn’t go as planned.Trust me…..Not to mentioned the pictures tha I took aren’t the best.SO here goes I’m gonna attempt it again.

Today has been a day that started off as one that was going to be overwhelming. Just overwhelmed by the thoughts of not even tomorrow but next month, when I go back to Canada. I have to really embrace the “Do not worry about tomorrow…” that Jesus talked about, and live each day for that day.
Is was also another sober encounter with God as so many have been down here.Sometimes when God speaks to your heart all you can do in cry, because nothing else seems to make sense to do, but cry as he makes himself known to you once again as he will so often do time and time again, not for His sake but ours.